::_// Poem For My Dearest //_::

:( guys, im sick right now, over n over again....aaagggght!!!im so disgusting with myself, curse me for this damn pain!!!

right now, u r the only reson for me to live my life. im not strong enough as you know, but always i try to be strong like what everyone wanted me to be....im so tired. i've tried so many way to cure my pain :( God, help me, im too weak to get up, help me...


he said that i have to be strong :) im stooooong!!!hahaha*foolish hoping

hope someday, i can see your cutest smile.i dunno how long God will be calling me, but the last will i've is ... see your cutest smile. i just want you to accompany me, whatever is that, as my gud friend, as my BF, or anything. i just wanna you to closr with me :'( only you the thing that all i wanted right now. i know that someday you will leave me over again, but i beg to you to stay with me, pls dont leave me anymore. i really need you more than anything in this world. pls dont leave me anymore*crying...

you r the only star i want see at night, yu r the only flower i wanna feel that smell, you r the only hokki for mr to get, you r the only rain i wanna wet my land, n you r the only person between million people i wanna know n i wanna have in my own world :')

if you wanna leave me again, i wish that you would like to read this blog, i really need you, soo pls i beg you to stay with me for any loger aver after :')

:’( po, I miss you much, can you hear me?

After The Rain
Words and music by Adhitia Sofyan

About the song :
The simple thought of missing someone that’s far far away.

If I could bottled the smell of the wet land after the rain
I’d make it a perfume and send it to your house
If one in a million stars suddenly will hit satellite
I’ll pick some pieces, they’ll be on your way

In a far land across
You’re standing at the sea
Then the wind blows the scent
And that little star will there to guide me

If only I could find my way to the ocean
I’m already there with you
If somewhere down the line
We will never get to meet
I’ll always wait for you after the rain

:’( po, something always whispers on my ear that you there ok n you want me to do something best everytime. Po, do u know, im stronger than yesterday :’D you have to see on me now, I want to tell you everything since you passed away :’(
I miss you softness, you hand when you caress my hair n waiting for me till Im sleeping n kiss my forehead when im wake up. I miss you when you angry to me when im wet cs the rain. N when it rain, we always looking at the rain n smell the wet ground after the rain, etc.

Po, if I were an angel, I would go to where you are n I would say that I wont lose you, I would ask to god to call “her” than he call you. I would be happy ever after like a princess in a fairy tales. But I know that I would never be that princess or I would be that angel. I couldn’t do anything to make you come back to me, I just cried like now to show that I miss you so much. You never gonna be change by everything in this world.

For “her”
Do u know, I DON’T NEED FAKER LIKE YOU!!!WHAT THE FUCK WITH EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO TO ME.I DON’T GIVE MY DAMN CARE FOR ALL THAT YOU’VE DONE!!!I HATE FAKER!!! I hope you could go back to the HELL, BITCH!!!

:) guys, this is something new for me, I had this story in my school when I had the workshop. Well, here we goes:
My name is valent, I was born in a crowded family. My father never want me, because my mother give me a birth without any plain, it was an “accident” . I feel so depressed. My father always curse me, he always torture me. I knew that I just bastard n they wont me.
Someday my father strangkle choke my mom, I was crying, but I couldn’t anything. I entered my bedroom n crying.
When I was 14years old, my father angry to me because I made a lil mistake, I was late to going home. My father wanted to kill me with that sword, before he killed me, he asked me,” what do you want?you always make my life so complicated, I hate you very much,”lucky me, he close his sword n blow me with gasper. Over n over again I entered my bedroom, I planed to kill him. But something whisper in my ear, “don’t do that, you just broke yourself,”then I asked him, “who are you? r u God? why you never help me till now? don’t you know I’m so suffer?,”he silent for a while. I asked him again,”what should I do?im depression?,”he answered,”I promise that I will make you be better n smart person,”
Finally, he make her promises to be come true…


Well guys, it’s a short story from miss valent in the workshop, it could tell us that God is available n he know what we want n what the best for us…god always be there for us wherever we are n who ever we are. When no body love you, God still love you n he never leave you, God love you more than anything or whoever in this world :)

Firstly, I just want to say to God: thx God for everything, I knew that everybody leave me, you still here accompany me. I know you are the most … everything to love me everytime :) secondly, I would like to say thx for my parent, because of them im here now n im happy to be their daughter. Thx mom for love my me they way I am, I know that I often be naughty daughter, but you also be my suck mom. Deep in my soul, I never hate you n I always love you Mom…for my father, pha, I know that I am too talkative for ask anything in this world, but thx for give me everything I need, I know that I often suck bcs im too spoiled, I also know you’ve hard working for us, thx pha :) thirdly, for my best best best brother n sister whom I cant says their name one by one, I just want you all to know that I couldn’t be like this without any support for you guys :)


N.B: my life is crowded by randika praworo putro, what a ... guy!!! i am not sleeping tonight for waiting his answer, WHAT THE H**L!!!

:D thx God, I knew that you love me much.
Well guys, finally I found him. I dunno what kind of ghost inside him, but he sent me a text that show he missed me n asked about my condition,haha.
:’D thx god, finally you answer my prayer, I really please to say thx to You,hahahha*crying
:) I’ve been so looooooooooooooooong waiting for you to say: ah monyet lu.wkkwkwwk. a a, I really miss you, I swear for everything that I have, I miiiiiiiissssssssssssss you much much much :D
I write this post with crying, bcs he said that he is one of student of UGM,it’s mean that we are in the same town,hahaha. I dunno what should I do, I realllllllllllllly happpppppppppppppppppy,ahahaha, I just wanna cry for him,hahahaha,
Thx God for make me this way,my heart beat faster, my tears is running down, my skin is like take off of my body, I’m meltiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing,ahhaha